Our Good?

‘He makes all things workout together for our good’ 

Does this mean he makes bad things happen to us? No, the Bible says that he came so we might have peace and have it abundantly. Sometimes we let bad things happen to us like what Adam and Eve did, but most times, the devil does, which is his purpose, he came to kill, to steal and to destroy.

 We always wonder how something so bad like the death of a loved one, losing a job, accidents, illness and poverty, can be used for our good but, yeah it can. We just don’t know what our good is, that’s the whole mystery. 
We always associate good with prosperity and wellness but that is what human standards have set up as good. We don’t know whether its actually good for us or not. But God knows our good and depending on what happens to us, he has to keep aligning everything together so it can work with his purpose and plan for our lives. Remember, his plans are to prosper us. That is where he again beats the devil, when satan stirs up something to destroy us, God makes it workout for our good and the devil loses.

The whole point then is to trust God, this doesnt mean we can’t feel hurt when something bad happens to us, It doesnt mean we can’t cry when we lose a loved one, it just means that we need to trust God and believe that whatever the circumstance, he has our best interest at heart and that whatever happens a rainbow will rise after the storm, the morning will chase the night a way for a brand new day. Just Keep The Faith.

Just Give it all up

It’s mind-boggling how we all have these secrets that we keep hidden from everyone, even the closest to us. We all have parts and pieces of our lives that we don’t want anyone to find out because it’s shameful or it will ruin our reputations and sometimes relationships. We all pretend that we have everything under control and that we are almost perfect, we even sometimes talk bad about some of the habits that we know very well we do. Isn’t it sad how we all ptetend that we all have our worlds held together? do we though? Aren’t we all captives of some sort of prison? Of addictions, lies, pasts and a lot of other things we just can’t write here.

Why do we have to hide them to people though? Why don’t we want them to find out? What would they do to us? Does it really matter if they found out? Do they even need to find out because at the end of it all, it’s not them that you are called to impress, it’s not about anyone else but you.

 The only person we have to impress knows all of it, and I mean EVERYTHING. He knows that you are not perfect, that you are broken, that you cheat, that you are insecure, that you have an addition. He knows that sometimes when you are alone you cry. He knows that you don’t have it all together, that you are struggling, that you are afraid, that you are tired of everything. He knows that you don’t have it all together. So what is the point of faking it if God knows? What is the point of deceiving people that we are happy when God knows we aren’t?

How about we all just give it all up and accept that we are not perfect, that we can’t fix it, because we really can’t, that it’s too much to handle by ourselves and just surrender to him. How about we just tell him, “God, I know you know everything, you know every corner of my mind and heart, you know my soul. How foolish am I to think that I can keep all this from you? To pretend that everything is perfect yet you know very well more than I do that it’s not. God fix me, I surrender everything, I’m tired of all the guilt and the shame. Forgive me please. Recreate me and my heart that I may learn to be open and free with you and then to be open with people too. God I need you.

 There is freedom in accepting that you’ve been defeated and that it doesn’t make you less of what God made you. God knows that you can not handle everything, that’s why he tells us to go to him when we are weary and he will give us rest.

 It doesn’t matter what the world knows about you if you are right with God. No one can use your testimony against you. Do not be afraid to be against the world if you stand with God. That is all that matters. Let us seek to please God and let him in our heart of hearts, let’s make him our friend because only him has been and will be with us through all the shadows, darkness and the storms that no body else knows or wants to know about.

New Year.

A new year is always a vast vacuum we know nothing about, its usually like a mysterious dream until it finally unfolds. A new year [2017] is here and most of us are praying for it to be  better than what we have seen already,  which is what we always do.

I was thinking about how good I want it to be and it hit me; I have no choice, whether it turns out good or bad I will happily step into it and will be thankful to see the dawn of January.

Each year comes with its own things, growth, successes and sometimes failure. Why do we always pray for new things when we could pray for new strategies? Its a new year but nothing is really new except; the numbers are higher and we all become a year older so at the end of it all, its not about the year its about our  growth, our progress and above all our life. If we should pray for anything, let us pray for new strength, courage and hope to handle anything that comes with it.

Let us then enter the year with courage and strength to carry on no matter what we are dealt with. If we can handle one year till the end, we can handle another one and another. Its just a matter of giving everything to God and letting him take the lead because if they told us the coming year would be worse we still would not choose the passing year.

Just dress up in courage,

hope and strength to handle whatever 2017 brings with it. The most important attitude a conqueror needs is courage, with this 2017 will be a good year whatever comes a long with it.


The first steps to starting a relationship with anyone is knowing who they are; what their name is, what their best food is, what music they listen to, the list is endless, every single day we always want to find out something new about someone we love.

When you find out your lover’s best food you always make sure it’s what you prepare when they come around,  you play their best music and maybe look for the kind of movies they love to watch, that is how you get to know someone you have a relationship with.

When you dont know anything else about a person other than just their names then you dont know who they are. You have to know a person deeper and this gives us pleasure in many ways we cant explain

 That is the same way i want to know God and maybe deeper than that. Until I get interested in God more than a boyfiend, I will keep digging, looking searching for more of him.

Letter to self

Before anything else, always believe you are beautiful,  remember that even on those days that a hair style turns out wrong or when your eyes are heavy from sleep, you are God’s image and he delights in you, but never trust in your physical beauty, never make it the source of your happiness, never use it as a weapon or strength, it’s not that strong and it can disappear anytime. 

Know  that you are not perfect, know that you cannot always win, and that doesnot mean you are less or a failure it means you are human.Never make yourself the center of anything only Jesus, is the center.

Love, always love, even those that are hard to love, love them more. Be patient with people, do not be quick to label anyone. Give everyone a chance to prove themselves remember you are not perfect either.

Be kind, words break more people and souls than sticks and stones.You will never take back anything that you have said, always watch your tongue. Kindness should be your language. Let it brand you.

This world is not good, a lot of things will not go your way, you will lose at some point, some people will hate you, even those you did not expect, your heart will ache and break, but this same world is for the bold, trust God always and fully. He will always give you the strength to carry on.

Pray, pray and keep praying, even when everything is on its best, pray. Trust God always and in whatever you do, acknowledge him.

This life is short, one second you will breathe your last and you can never be ready for that, you will even never know. Death will rob you of the people you love, remember that It’s God who gives so he can also take and that is what makes life worth living but, God will never leave you at any point in your life. 

Live your purpose while you can, do what ever you have to do while strength still runs in your bones. Do not trust this life, it will fool you into thinking you will live  forever, sad truth is, you will not but if you are wise you will. Find your purpose and live it that is our mission on earth.

Never believe in what the world calls fun, it may just aim at misleading you, fun is not confined in a place, an activity or a person.Fun is temporary and curcumstancial seek God’s joy instead, it lasts. Worldly pleasure are futile and will only kill you earlier than you are supposed to. 

Never put your hope or trust in anything perishable, riches beauty and people. Work hard, have enough but never rely on anything, they will all perish, so will you.

Read God’s word, meditate on it and live it, it is food to the hungry, hope to the hopeless, vision to the blind, compass to the lost, it is everything. It is wisdom, it is life, it is your weapon.

Never let anyone deceive you that God is not there, always listen you will always hear him, he is closer than you know.

Respect everyone even those younger than you, be humble it will save you from a lot of trouble. Be faithful, be honest, be loyal, be considerate, be careful and always be thankful. Tell the truth always, be sensible, be you. And you will be happy.

Always please God, follow his instructions, be one with him, compare yourself to only him, he is the only prefect there is. Pray for discernment, pray for wisdom, pray for perseverence, pray for self control, and pray for patience, you will never have enough of these. 

Live, love and appreciate yourself always.

Ask, always ask

Most times we fear to ask, we fear to approach people and we fear to make moves, we fear to even say what we think even when it’s killing us. 

Fear of rejection, of failure, of hearing a no, is real. Sometimes I feel like I shrink everytime someone tells me no, every time my request is declined, every time my results are not positive, I feel small, I want the ground to devour me so no one will experience my shame. This is one of those things I keep battling with everyday. 

When I apply for a job and they don’t hire me or atleast tell me sweetly the reason they couldn’t hire me, I overthink it, I doubt my abilities and end up feeling broken each time. 

But I’m trying to learn that when someone tells me no it has nothing to do with me, it doesn’t mean I’m less or incapable. I’m learning that just as I would say no to what I don’t like, someone else can also say no to what they don’t like even if it’s me.

I’m learning to take no, to accept that I can’t be everyone’s choice and that I can’t keep having my way all the time.It’s okay for someone to say no and it’s important for me to accept that whatever the case may be.

Sailing the language waters

I have been applying to a lot of jobs lately and one qualification that I have been running short, one that I can’t even lie about is being bilingual. Every time I see a position with this requirement,I feel singled out, more like the world has left me behind, how could I be this slow?

I remember years back, möm used to beg us to learn French infact she even offered to give us lessons but none of us went to her class thrice. The second time we were all complaining because her class started at 7am, how early! especially on days we were off from school. That was torture and we did not see that much of a need then[eyes that can see beyond the seeable should be a prayer request for most of us].

Well, knowing English in Africa feels like everything. It always feels like you can go to all the planets on feet but guess what? We missed the Mark.

Now I’m here trying to learn some French and maybe Spanish will follow especially since it is the second most used language in San Diego. Things are not easy, speaking; un, une, la, le, and a thousand more that I haven’t reached at yet.

One thing is for sure though, when I’m done with this, I can easily visit Paris, talk freely to anyone who speaks French and maybe eat more French fries plus let me introduce myself again, Je suis une fille.

Your truths.

Knowing oneself comes a long way, most of us grow up without connecting with ourselves, we live listening to and believing what others have to say about us and we never listen to or give ourselves a chance to think that our opinions about ourselves are what matter the most.

It is important that we know ourselves and most important that we accept ourselves. Acceptance comes from knowing who we are and what makes us who we are.

Accepting yourself starts by telling yourself daily that you are good enough no matter what standards have been set, whether you reach them or not, it is looking at yourself everyday and falling in love with your eyes every second, it is knowing that you are enough for yourself and that no body can ever change that.

Knowing yourself is accepting that you may never be perfect but know that you are good enough and you can conquer whatever you need to.

When you know your truths no one can deceive you and they always liberate you.

What makes you beautiful?

I was reading through some stuff and I came a cross this “what makes you beautiful?” I started thinking about it for some time and realised it’s not as simple as it looks or sounds. Nevertheless, I am going to try and write what I think makes me beautiful.

When God was creating man he said “let us make man in our image”, and boom I was made, I’m literally made like God that doesn’t even make me beautiful, it makes me more than beautiful. Its even enough for this kind of question but I will write more.

“You are wonderfully and beautifully made” that’s another big one and this comes from God himself making it so real and true.

Now I can go personal, though as a person I can barely think of many ‘whats’ that I can write. I know I’m beautiful; I see my reflection everyday and appreciate what God does with me, but I know besides what the eyes can see, I have a heart that loves people. Just seeing people makes me happy, whether I know them or not I just love them. I can spend the whole day looking at people passing me without saying a word and that would make me so happy. The beauty of all people lies down in my soul and the beauty from their eyes sometimes shines through me. Haha

I love God, I believe in God and I was saved by God. There’s always something beautiful about a person who has a touch of salvation on their lives and it always reflects as beauty in a person. Its like how an artist gives life to a drawing. That’s beauty with a special touch of God’s colourful brush.

Writing about beauty can be strenuous because it’s one broad topic, beauty is every where, it’s in every eye, in every light and lies in every shadow. Beauty is mysterious you cannot really know What makes up beauty. A billion of people are beautiful and none of them looks alike yet they have the same features, that’s beauty. No one really knows what it is But I know the kind of beauty God gives.



I went to a strip club

just a jesus follower

strip clubA while back I was asked by a group of pastor’s wives to go with them to strip clubs.

That sentence alone sounds strange. But hang with me.

At first I was a little hesitant. And not for reasons you might think.

I love people. Especially ones who are broken; it’s part of my calling. But, given what I’ve walked through, I know how fragile broken people can be.

And I know how insensitive the church can be.

And I was uneasy.

But, these weren’t just any pastors wives.

They had a vision.

One that longed to love on women that society had thrown aside.

It reminded me a lot of Jesus.

So, I jumped on it.

Their plan was to visit these clubs once a month to deliver a meal and gift baskets. I joined them the first night and I’ll be honest, I had NO IDEA what to expect.

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